Lack of control to the containment of tears

For the fear of death whispering in ears

All that is permanent quickly seems to erase

It's completely clear, just look at my face

my ailment exhausts me to the point where i am left with emptiness my condition is fraudulent it reeks with spoilage this cancer is causing dilapidation to any gratifying pleasantness i have been burglarized by this kleptomaniac affliction i will soon be stripped of all that i am & know it is better that i take the weight of this brick into the ocean myself this plague is mine and i shall let it devour me alone

lost hopes & false esteem when teenage boys try to fit in i want the window mirror in your bedroom did i tell you that i came here with nothing today & leo came from the same place i sit in the most comfortable shirt & its not mine dont look at me that way stop undressing me

she came to me last night while I was sleeping i woke as she was above me when she noticed my eyes were open she smashed my face into my pillow i was having trouble breathing as i struggled to free myself from her overpowering grip when i broke free i helplessly crawled away she followed after me laughing she quickly placed a fog on my eyes and i could no longer see straight i tried to scream not a sound escaped all i could feel was the pressure of my own existence weighing itself down on my chest tension began to build in my throat i then learned that i was alone